Friday 25 April 2008

Drained

Feels like someone's put a vacuum cleaner in me and just sucked up everything that makes me do stuff. It's probably due to the fact that I hadn't gone to sleep for 32 hours since now (I just had a 5 hour nap), and by "probably" I mean "absolutely".

Today when I got out of bed, everything was wobbly and I kept stumbling (cos I didn't actually sleep and was so tired) and I've pretty much felt like that all day. The reason I didn't go to sleep was because my sociology coursework decided to delete itself at 1am, just as I was finishing. Everything I'd done. So I stayed up all night to finish, and by the time I was done, I had to go to school. Yeah, it was awful, really, but I didn't get down about it, because if I did I'd never get it done. It's out of the way now, and I don't care what the hell I get because it's sociology and not something important.

I realised something today, something incredibly annoying about me as a person. On school days, I judge how good a day was completely on one thing. It's a small, insignificant thing that doesn't change anything, which is annoying how however fuckin' amazing my day is, I won't feel happy if I don't do this one thing by the end of the day. It gets me down, and what's worse is that just because I know it's not important, it doesn't stop me feeling down about it. I just feel kinda pathetic (and yeah, I'm not going on about what this thing that I have to do is. Why don't you make it up, haha, it'll be more entertaining that way.)

So yes, that's it. That's what's on my mind right now. Also lots of thoughts about young earth creationists and how I want to destroy them, but righting about that would be boring. I will say though, it's not nice when I'm told I'm going to hell by people, and they mean it.

Sunday 20 April 2008

Added a counter

Now I can carefully see how many people view my blog. WOO. It's actually a lot higher than I thought it would be in a day, which is cool and all, but it would be even MORE cool if comment numbers matched. Comments are anonymous, remember (though you can still put your name down).

This is the worst blog I've ever written, but they won't get any worse than this, I promise.

Friday 18 April 2008

I can't think of anything blog

But I'm told I should keep blogging, so that just might be what I'll do. So uh, here we go I guess:

I can listen to almost any song on the train or bus, and enjoy it. I don't know whether my brain tells me that it's insanely happy to be listening to anything other than the bus engine, or whether things sound better when looking out a window while moving, but all music I listen to is just more enjoyable. I remember one instance listening to songs on shuffle, when a song called "The Gloaming" started playing. I pretty much thought "Wait, isn't this that song that I hate? Why am I enjoying it so much?" and it's since become a favourite (well, I five starred it at least).

If there's one recent improvement to my life, it's my iPod. Listening to music helps me get up in the morning, and the train journeys fly by. A downside, I guess, is that I no longer get the metro (I only read it to pass the time on the way to school), so I guess I'm a little uninformed, but oh well.

I can't wait to sleep tonight, seriously. I haven't had a really good sleep for about a week. Honestly, weekend to me is just "days where you're allowed to sleep until you choose" for me, which is pretty much all I want from them. Well, that's a lie; I'd like to do stuff as well, but the day that happens is the day hell freezes over. IF IT EXISTED HAHAHAHAHAHA yeah hi.

Random things:

I've realised that I thrive on creating things. I don't consider a day well spent unless I have created or at least contributed to creating something, whether that be music, drawing, or even creating a better relationship with a friend (that sounds so, so, incredibly lame, but I guess it's kinda true?) I'm annoying in that I think that I have to do something each day; I can never really relax and do nothing (even though it seems like it, I know. Even creating this blog counts as doing something creative for me). I love the idea that I can make things that other people will like. Creating things for people as presents is also awesome, it's better than buying things (unless the thing is insanely immaculate etc). Why yes.

Right now I am creating 3 cartoons, 3 songs (basically this means that I can remember 3 chord sequences and/or riffs, not that I'm actually making anything worthwhile), and this blog. Why yes. Creating things is one of the coolest things in the world. It's why I changed schools, not enough creating going on there.

Well, I think I'm done. Bye.

HEY DOM!